Exam week.
If my life wasn't stressful enough, if the pressure to thrive for perfection hadn't already captivated my soul, then the added pressure of being at my A game is certainly not needed.
The thing is with anorexia ruling your every thought, action and pre action, your mind becomes foggy.
You can't concentrate on a simple task. When you are living on such a tight number of calories, naturally your body will use them up on keeping your organs functioning, leaving you with a brain that doesn't wish to do what you are forcing it to do .... study. The most irritating part is that most of us are smart, we know the consequences that occur on our constant strive for bones, we know that we are slowly killing ourselves, and we know that the only way to survive is by eating something nutritious every couple of hours. Notice that I said nutritious not calorific, that is because you can be healthy and survive, it is not necessary to have a fat full life. That being said, that is rather hypocritical of me as I could never push myself to live a healthy life. I am selfish, I like begin sick, I like being weak. My Anorexia is a cry for attention, I was always invisible.
I shouldn't be saying all of this, because this is me procrastinating right now. I need to stop and get back to the main task, studying.
But let me leave you all with this.